Intrusiv #51
Intrusiv - (Intrusive) Project in collaboration with the photographer Thomas Rusch
Show & Gallery: Akira Cine, Colombia 2023
Curated by Juan Rueda
Supported by Akira Cine
the dark figure from childhood that crawled out of the picture on the wall in grandma's bedroom. the dark, endlessly black, deep rainwater barrel in the neighbor's garden. the old fearmongers. dark fantasies, "evil" thoughts that are stuck in you, and that you might learn to enjoy playing with at some point. with a mixture of shuddering fascination and strange disgust.
recurring mental Tourette's, severe, violent nightmares, and mysterious, lascivious, morbid sexuality create a disturbing insecurity, even manifest disturbance. perhaps an endogenous trauma transfer or perhaps an incubus? sometimes all of this mixes into an irritating neurotic amalgam. until you hear about intrusive thoughts for the first time. most people know these moments: standing on a high bridge, looking down, and feeling the impulse to jump. or wanting to spontaneously shout loudly and obscenely in a large, quiet group. these are intrusive thoughts: inappropriate thoughts and images at inappropriate times. a neural feedback loop. nothing special for most people. suppose you don't have a traumatic experience, depression, or obsessive-compulsive disorder - just human, harmless, and weird.
don't believe everything you think.
when I first saw a work by carolina, I was very touched, shuddered, and had to laugh. I felt attracted and caught. I felt our shared lust and fascination for flesh, skin, and hair. and was relieved by how carolina paints cheerfulness, humor, and love out of the supposedly dark and morbid.
Berlin, 2022 - Text by Thomas Rusch
